sian.. today reali got monday blues sia.. haiz* i was like, almost sleeping all the way can. damn sleepy. sighs* today lunchtime played vball. aha. damn farni sia. everione's ball kena drop in lake lehs. bballs also lor. cool shit man~ aha. then we took the chance to take the courts. haha.. thought we could finalli play properly wif the net and all.. but then wad happened? zong and shawn extra sia. cum in da courts and keep spiking. like, wtf lor. then poor qian always kena hit. suay laa. hahaha.. but shawn couldn't reali spike lehs. think cux he missed out on alot of trngs and stuff. so kinda off form lo. and zong head ache sia. also cnt spike his best. oh well. poor them. lol.. and then came to assembly. we were walking to the grand audi and yilux' was giving us a talk on the fcuk'd up ppl she met..*blechs* she these few days got mood swings sia. duno wads wrong..
oh yeas. today b4 assembly.. this person talked to me. bout him. the person was like, why, you like him in the first place? what, do you want to happen if you told him the truth? do you wana b his stead or sumthing? since you dun even noe wad you want, y not..gif up?? i was like, stoned rite there.. also duno wad to say.. so sudden and stuff.. like, wth.. then i started to think bout it. seriously speaking..i din reali listen during assembly. my mind was just wandering off and stuff.. thinking bout wad i reali WANT. and then.. i just got all confused inside. at one point my tears started to gather. i also duno y.. they just came but i blinked them back.. i reali duno.. shld i just gif up? another fren of mine was rite.. the worst pains..are having found him* but realising you cant haf him.. dats like, the worst.. like, everithing so hard to let go and stuff. mayb i shld just forget bout everithing.. argh. my present life sucks. in sucha confused state.. i'm so lost.
sobs* i always tell myself everithing is gonna b alrite..but mayb i shld stop saying dat alreadi.. x(